Lung Cancer-Carcinoid

I have been learning SOOO much the past several months. The interesting thing is that my incrediable body has been fighting junk inside of me for a VERY long time and I never knew it. When I had endometriosis inside of me attacking my uterus and ovaries and intestines I felt it! It HURT! When I had Paget's, I felt it! IT ITCHED! When I had MRSA, I felt it! Again, it HURT! But now pictures of inside of me say I have a carcinoid in my lung. I don't feel it. I think somehow the doctors got me switched with someone else. I have been doing some reading and some symptoms that I have had for years, like IBS, can actually be caused by the carcinoid. Being tired all the time can be caused by the carcinoid. WHO KNEW? Well, now I do. So today I met with the lung surgeon. I know this is what he does every day, but to me it is all new. I don't know what questions to ask. But what I do ask, he is happy to answer. Most of it is, "We will have to wait and see when we get inside of you." I have tried to add a picture of lungs and where the carcinoid is and for some reason I just can't seem to get the picture to attach. So we have 3 lobes on the right side and two lobes on the left. On my right side, the middle lobe, in the airway INTO the middle lobe is my carcinoid. It is completely covering the hole. How I am getting air into that lobe is a mystery. So the doctor will go in through my side, spread my ribs and take out my middle lobe and HOPEFULLY will be able to connect my lower lobe to the upper lobe so I only loose one lobe. Lucky for me, the middle lobe only produces about 10% of my air so I really should not even miss it.(So says the doctor..) We have to ask my insurance (Medi-Cal) if I can have the surgery and where may I have it. Then we will decide WHEN to have it. (hurry up and wait) One out of eight women will get breast cancer in their life. One in a million women will get carcinoid syndrome. I am one out of eight and one out of a million. Have you ever been on the roller coaster at the Disney "California" park? You sit in the seat with the harness holding you into the seat and you are put at the start of the ride and have a count down..10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1 and you take off SO fast. Your insides all squeeze together, your tummy gets TIGHT and you get tossed all over. If you keep yourself tight, you really get beat up. If you somehow relax your middle, it is a really fun ride. I figured out about the 4th time on it that if I don't tense up and just relax, the ride is SOOOO fun and I truly enjoy it. (Before it was fun but I felt banged up.) I say this because so many times during this past year, I have felt myself "Tense" up with all that is happening to me. I can get myself really worked up, or I can "Relax" and go with the ride. I am not trying to say that this is fun in any way, but I am finding that I am not freaking out. I trust my Heavenly Father. He is allowing me to go through this process for a reason. I don't know if I will be helping someone in the future with the same problems, or if I need to learn from this experience to help myself with my own problems. Heavenly Father has given each of us skills, or talents, or gifts (what ever you want to call them). It is up to us to find them. I firmly believe in the skills, talents, gifts that my surgeons have been given and have worked to develop. Now I ask that Heavenly Father guide their hands while using these skills, talents, gifts, to help me in my journey.